Just Exploring

Little by little we make small things big. Step by step we move forward. Following the right path, the Eightfold path, makes me calm, steady and happy. Did you find yours? Everybody has one, just some must look deeper or look for it longer. Just explore and it will unfold naturally.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

1.B during brake

The school year started and so together with this fact my life style changed. It is already an year plus tree weeks since I came back to Europe. The people which I called buddy's before I came back would hardly recognize me. Even I'm (nicely) surprised of the big change that happened. I came from the jungle with big dreams about far-away journeys and exotic lifestyles. I wanted to finish university but there wasn't even a slightest thought in my mind to actually go and teach in Slovakia. I knew that I want to teach but I wanted to go out and more less continue in exploring other countries. Well, but during the winter in dormitory I calmed down, and realized that, the life style I lived in USA wasn't the best for me. Sure, I knew it for a while but only now I was able to see it clearly. Some of you (like Monica from Chicago) couldn't imagine me in front of a class teaching math... Well with the visage I had in state one would need a lot of imagination . As I sad, lot of changes happened a in my life. Not only that my outward form is completely different, but also my inside belief is a little more realistic and calm. So it happened that my opinion on being a teacher in Slovakia changed too. I'll be honest, the main reason why I started to look for the job here, was because it was the easiest option, and also because I knew that work experience in this branch is necessary. And where should I get it? Wouldn't it be waste of energy to go aboard again, and start from zero, when I can start here and get a support from my parents and friends. Plus the knowledge of the system in your own country is important. Isn't it ? Such and much more, but similar train of thoughts was running in my head during the last year. So I decided to be a teacher in my native country. The rest was easy -well at least it looks like, because I was hired at the first school I was interested in. And it is also the best school I could get. I'm sure it wasn't that easy... I have to thank to God of Luck for his blessing... my qualities was recognized. Now I only heaved to fulfill them. The challenge is big. My employers are very bright persons, and my pupils are sharp as well.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Math lesson

Challenge is big, but that's what makes the life unique experience. Choosing the easiest options isn't the right way. (Yes I know I just confessed that I started to look for the job in Slovakia because it was the easiest option, yes, yes I'm not a superman... ) Going beyond your capacities isn't good either. The best is to stand on the ground but trying to reach as far as possible... That's what I'm doing now. Fortunately I'm standing on the stable platform, but to satisfy the expectation as mine so mine employers and also mine students I have to stand on tiptoes and stretch my hand above my head... Teaching is taking all of my energy and power. I need to use all of my knowledge and skills, and still I'm not doing the best job I think I could. It gives me the highest satisfaction I ever experienced. Non of the previous job was even close, neither none of the other activities, except traveling... I discovered that to be a teacher is my life profession. There is no necessity to say any strong words. One month is definitely not enough to say anything like "I will be a teacher till end of my life", and if the circumstances doesn't change I will probably be forced to do something else, or somewhere else. But what I know now is that I'm happy... Even I'm tired, and frustrated little bit because it isn't that easy. I didn't had any big expectation, and I was almost positive that it will be hard -why should I have it easy, when I wasn't really nice to my teachers... It isn't a problem it is only that I have to get used to. There will always be nice students who do everything somebody tells them, and there will always be also the opposite ones, and it is good that it is like that because balance is important. So I'm thankful to all of them, I'm thankful for their patients with me. I'm really trying to do my best. School is my life now. I don't do any thing else. I let go my PhD studies, and all other side project. Some of them I would like to get back... Now I'm just waiting when will my hectic life style calm down little bit so I can do sport again, that I could draw again, and of course travel again. Everything needs time. Now I have to focus to the topic. And my topic is called MATH. So all my daily activities turns around this subject. If I'm not dealing with actual mathematic problems, than I'm dealing with other school thinks... And there are always thousand of them, like tons of questions from the students, or doing the paper work, or attend the staff meetings, or just taking the necessary brake from neverending talking... The weekdays runs in speed of light and the weekends gives me just enough time the do minimum of necessary relaxation one need to survive. OK, OK now I exaggerated a little, but this is how I see it now. I'm sure that it will calm down latter. And that it will be only better. Even now I'm doing really good. The feedback energy is so big that it makes everything running alright. YEAH EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT... EVEN MORE ALRIGHT THAT IT IS NOW. VOW

Wednesday, September 21, 2005


I'm back from another exciting journey. It was shorter than the last one, but much more intensive and real, because I was limited with money, and because I visited different countries of course. It was also harder and more difficult, but therefore I like it more, and I have really nice and “strong” memories. The trip can be divided into 3 main parts: hitchhiking there and back –this was the most difficult part, because I was alone, so I was thinking a lot..., plus I made more than 8000 km criss-cross Europe, so I was thinking a lot..., I had to talk to many drivers, I had to stand many hours on the sun, and some also in the rain! ...but I like it, so it's not such a big problem for me as it could be for somebody else. I made it in 6 days from Bratislava to Algeciras and in 5 days back -well actually in 4 days from Malaga, but it took me whole 24 hours to get from Algeciras to Malaga -shit I waited 19 hours on one gas station (with 3 euros -witch I spend for the train from Bratislava to Galanta)!!! Second part was the days in Barcelona and Urie's house with nice Spanish people. It was different part because everything was secure, calm and Griss took care of me -thanks a lot. This was like a party & relax part, I liked it a lot, but it also meant some extreme for me. The third part was actual Morocco. This was the most hard core part - exciting trip to wild world of Arab's and Berber's. I met my two friends -Ivan&Lubka, so for this two weeks I wasn't alone. We went through a completely new and unexplored world. I smelt the aroma of Africa and tried the taste of poor and dry country. Country too close to Europe, so too jealous for wealth (off course nobody knew that we are from poor Slovakia). We don't have too nice feelings about the Moroccians people, because they are already too greedy and completely unresponsible, and spoiled by tourism! Beyond all they'r "hospitality" and "Bon Jour" there was graving for profit from us, or directly getting the cash. I can understand that they need to live from something, but if they're hiding business behind so famous unconditional hospitality, than I'm sad, and if it is just everywhere than I'm pissed of! Almost all of them had this mask: "Hello how are you? Welcome in Morocco…. Come to my hotel, or come and by this so I can have profit from you, or give me one dirham", and if we wasn't responding correctly, then they was pissed, and they was saying that we don't understand they'r mentality!!! One kid even sad "F*** of" after we sad we don't have much money… I know this little bit from Turkey, or Central America, but in Morocco it was just 100 times stronger, it was everywhere, and all the time. It's sad but we didn't met anybody who would be behaving really without any conditions!

But anyway it was an excellent and interesting trip. We explored the North Africa. First we went to Fez -this city lives still now like it does 1000 years ago!!! Big and Chaotic medina (old town) with lot of shops, and people. Lot of new smells and views for me… It remind me little bit Nicaragua because we met lot of travelers. From there we went to Merzouga, small town on the edge of desert -–small part of Sahara. AAAAAaaaa this was just too hot to bear, but we wanted to try it. For one night we made a trip into the desert. Strong and hot wind, plus send everywhere that's what I remember . Than we went to High Atlas mountains. First we visited famous climbing spot Todra Gorge and latter I hiked J. Toubkal (4160m). I did it alone because my friend catched altitude sicknes -she couldn't breath and start to feel really dizzy, latter she was vomiting and get a strong diarrhea too. It was really bad for here but , she get through it. During the descend from the peak I swapped my tent for beautiful berber carpet! From there we went to Marakesh, also big and old town, but already too modern and not so interesting as Fez. The last stop was amazing waterfalls called Ozzoud. Well but I thing the pictures will tell you more.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Here we start.... Small town Merzouga on the edge of desert Erg Cherbi, camel's and me and 45°C in shade (120 F). If you check the map is quite far away from Borders. Well the reason is very sad. All pictures since Ceuta till Fez (except one + one video) are gone... We burned them on CD, but this get broken on the way back, and we had only no back up CD... So we got only pictures since Merzouga till the end. This town is close to Algerian borders (witch are closed for everybody) so one could think that it is dangerous out there, but is not. The desert makes a safeborderr zone, because it's not so easy to cross it. Anyway we did a small trip to explore new surface for us.

Monday, September 19, 2005

Chill out

This is how we chilled under the date palm trees. It was so hot that we was not able to do anything. We did only the necessary stuff like getting the water, cooking food (only soup) and laying down. The wind was more hot than the standing air because it came from sunny areas. Don't get it wrong we red only for couple minutes and than we get too tired to read any longer...

Sunday, September 18, 2005


Travelers in Morocco! Well we all should bow down in front of Lubka because she did it all with almost no comments, no arguing... In the middle of the trip (High Atlas) it was finally too much for here -but I would like to see you with altitude sickness, bad diarrhea and dirt everywhere!!! It was hard for us as well. We slept under the plain sky, we et the cheapest food, drinked just iodine water and always moved with our baggage on the shoulders. No one from us will ever forget the first night in Morocco: it was in Tetouan. We came to the town at night and didn't wanted to stay there, but there ware no more busses leaving till morning. Of course there was also no good time to look for bugged hotels, so we decided to sleep close to Main Bus Terminal... Probably the most dangerous place in town. There was on old market place and mosque, so we just laid (well half laid half sit) down there. Just so with backpack under the heads. There was an old guard who told us to move closer to him, so he can watch us during the night. Thanks to him we closed our ayes at least for couple seconds. It was really loud and noisy place with lot of drunk guys. And marocains don't look friendly even if they are sober -at least not on the first look and during the night. There is no other girl like Lubka...

Saturday, September 17, 2005


The desert!!! Something none of us saw and tried before. I sad tried, because to make a trip to a desert means to feel it with all senses. Ears, because of the wind. Touch, because of the sun and sweat on the skin. Taste and smell, because of the send in your mouth and nose. And of course ayes, even because there is maybe not much to see, but one will never forget the picture of desert.

Friday, September 16, 2005


This is what I like the most. Meet the other cultures, talk with new people -as far they come from that far I enjoy it! These Berber kids didn't talk much english but they're ayes was glowing and they're souls was clean...

Thursday, September 15, 2005

High Atlas

High Atlas was definitely the most exciting part of the trip. It was also something like a middle of the journey - we stopped going south and after hiking the highest peak of north Africa we turned around and headed back north. We spend 3 nights in mountains -finally we get chilled little bit: While I was descending the J. Toubkal there was an ice storm!!! I was so glad I had my rain jacked -even I didn't needed it almost the whole trip.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005


As I sad we get there by hitchhiking, so we wanted to try it also in Morocco... well nice try but we gave it up pretty early. It didn't look always like this. No, the problem was money. They wanted us to pay for hikes -of course as much as possible. We didn't knew how much is enough so we decided rather to travel by buses and cabs cause they have fixed prices.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005


The ***** (five star) hotel in Marrakesh looks like this. No I'm just kidding of course. But if you have 20 euros and you are 5000 km (3200 miles) from your home I'm sure you will call place like this five star hotel too. We had A/C -it was on the top of the roof with no wall as you can see. We had beautiful view of the town, we had original berber carpets on the wall, enough to eat, enough to drink... what else you would like to have?

Friday, September 09, 2005

Olive shop

Markets are other famous thinks in Morocco. Basically they sell everything you can imagine... many times delicious stuff other times just rubbish. We spended hours walking trought them... even we didn't had money to vast

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Street of Marrakesh

We don't have much pictures from town because as I sad we lost the pictures from the beginning of the journey -in Fez we did lot of pictures of medina (old town) and town as well, and since than nothing else was so interesting... This one is from Marrakesh

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Cascades Ozzoud

What is your definition of paradise? The cascades Ozzoud are pretty close to mine... I spend the last day here. Swimming in the fresh water, taking the sun bath (to get at least little bit tan) and gather enough energy for the trip back

Monday, September 05, 2005


When I sad paradise I mean it!!!

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

meditation session

meditation session
I spend one weekend with this peacefull group of people in northern part of Slovakia. It was really hard but usefull for my mind... I will begin the summer with 2 weeks of meditations with Banthe Sujiva from Malaysia also in Slovak's mountiens...


originally uploaded by zrniecko.

My sister had a birth day, so I made her a gift... this is a man (probably me) who bow down in front of your (her) beauty!!!

Friday, February 25, 2005


Winter in Bratislava is sometimes ugly, but it have some atmosphere... and I like it!!! notice the contrast: old castle and new greenpeace.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Thursday, February 10, 2005

top of the hill

top of the hill
To cheer you up i posted this two pictures. Me and my fellas from dorm, have some extra energy so we made some hiking two days before new year in Slovakian mountains. There is not much to see, but they sad that during a nice sunny day it's a beautifull view...

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

fallen polar explorer

fallen polar explorer
this looks cool... it looks like after 24 hours of hiking in himalayas... well it was only couple hours, and only in slovakian "small fatra" but I was exhausted. What you expect when you have to walk up steep hill in snow more then 1m (3 feet) high, 70 km/h (50 mph) wind and visibilty only couple meters (30 f). I was soaked, cold and hungry but happy and calm...